Jordi. Alicante. Victim of antipsychotics

Sum up:

Jordi is a 35 years old young man who lives in Valencia, on the east coast of the Iberian Peninsula. Despite his emotional problems he has suffered and despite being a victim of psychiatry, he has managed to finish his university career and is currently looking for a job. He defines himself as a sensitive person with difficulties in establishing social relationships.

Psychiatric drugs, specifically antipsychotics, have caused him severe memory issues until the point he couldn’t even speak. He had these speech problems for months and they were very serious. In addition, antipsychotics caused him akathisia, which is one of the most serious problems that an antipsychotic can cause, it’s nervousness throughout the body. In order to deal with these symptoms, most people take long non-stop walks around the room or open spaces to try, in some way, to find some relief. The symptoms can last for hours or be permanent. Akathisia can also cause continued tremors in the legs.

In addition to these problems, Abilify, an antipsychotic widely used by psychiatrists, also caused him insomnia, troubles to eat, and difficulty swallowing. When antipsychotics began to harm his health, he was prescribed Akineton, a drug used to prevent some of the antipsychotic side effects, but this drug didn’t work.

Jordi’s emotional problems would have been solved with the help of a psychologist, psychiatry has only brought him more problems and more suffering.


First treatment: Risperdal. 6mg .

Second treatment:  Invega. 9mg

Third treatment: Abilify. Injectable. 400 mg Fourth treatment: Olanzapine 20mg and Quetiapine.

Fifth treatment:  Xeplión 350 mg.

Full story:

My first emotional problems were caused by a traumatic experience with certain people who did not inspire confidence in me and who used to talk to me using suspicious hints. This increased my suspicions based on small details (a gesture, a phrase, or a message with double meaning), all these together with occasional harassment created a very strong fear in me, so strong that it made me lose my mind. This made me hypervigilant for any details, I began to magnify without control any small detail, which fueled related vague fears created by these first people that caused me so much damage.

My family saw my condition and decided to send me to the psychiatric hospital without my consent, and that worsened the situation fueling my fears for not understanding why I ended up there. I was prey to circumstances and fear did not allow me to interrupt events, since each event continued feeding, again and again, my fears.

Once inside the psychiatric hospital, the fear worsened. If the psychiatrists had been effective with a sensible intervention and through dialogue, I would have surely recovered from what was a panic crisis, but they diagnosed me with psychotic decompensation and prescribed me:

-1st hospitalization. Medication: Risperdal, 6 milligrams a day, antipsychotic that made me unable to think clearly, the fluidity of my thoughts was hampered, and made me unable to remember concepts with a certain intellectual complexity, very unpleasant sensations. In addition, it also produced me stiffness and difficulty eating and swallowing, very unpleasant and humiliating effects that made me suffer a lot. Then, to counteract these side effects, they gave me Akineton 1g, but it was useless.

On the other hand, I suffered forced verbal coercion by doctors to take the very same antipsychotics that caused me so much suffering. Even if I refused to take them I was always ignored and forced by them. At that time I couldn’t defend my rights, express my position or defend myself in any way because of the incapacitating intellectual state that antipsychotics produced in me. I was in a situation of coercion and deprivation of freedom because of the medication, in addition to the deprivation of living with dignity, because the quality of life was very painful.

Struggling, I was able to stop the medication, but unfortunately, I had subsequent relapses, I don’t know if due to the medication, but there are indications that antipsychotics can favor relapses. This was when I was diagnosed with schizophrenia, but I didn’t feel that way, I am “psychological” sensitive at specific moments, but the rest of the time I was normal, I felt normal. 

In subsequent relapses at intervals between each of about 9-12 months, the prescribed medication was: 

-2nd relapse. Medication: Invent 9mg a day, Akineton 1g (to counteract side effects, but it was useless); Side effects: difficulty eating and swallowing, stiffness, zombified state, forced verbal coercion to force me to continue medicating me, ignoring what I previously suffered.

-3rd relapse. Medication: Abilify injectable 400mg every month; Side effects during treatment: akathisia, insomnia, rapid heartbeats; Side effects after leaving treatment: difficulty remembering recent things, difficulty focusing, and the worst, being not being able to speak, communicating with simple and little elaborated phrases, until days came when I could only pronounce monosyllables, and this agony and torture lasted was for months.

-4th relapse. Medication: Olanzapine 20mg daily. Quetiapine. (I refused but they forced me to take it); Side effects: zombification, impaired language fluency, felt stuck.

-5th relapse. Medication: Xeplión 350 mg injectable (they used force on my refusal). Risperdal 6 mg daily; Side effects: Insomnia, memory loss, lack of concentration and the worst, akathisia, an unbearable feeling that made me resort to suicidal thoughts very often, and not tolerate stress.

Verbal coercion was a constant used by doctors to continue medicating me. They justified themselves, but the torture involved in keeping you as a zombie with disproportionate doses was inhuman, the end does not justify the means, it is not worth it living under mental repression that keeps your mind inert, this can’t be called medication treatment, this is torture by poisoning, this is crucifying people mentally and psychologically, this is to condemn them to perpetual suffering, this is to abuse of someone’s mental incapacity to deprive him of freedom, this is unforgivable. 

I have even received discriminatory and degrading treatment from doctors, accusing me of being a threat for not taking the medication, what I represent to them is a diagnosis, a bag of symptoms, they don’t know me, I have never been violent in my life, even when I had outbreaks or when I was committed. This is unacceptable.

Currently, I have a very strong psychological distress, with very low self-esteem, this makes me feel null, unable to work, and with a tendency to social isolation due to the difficulty to keep a conversation and connect with people. All these because of the consequences of the medication, the social stigma caused by the diagnoses, and lack of understanding and coercion received by the doctors.

It is offensive and dishonest that psychiatrists use their own ethics assuming the contradiction of using bad practices for the good and health of the patient. Methods based on obsolete theories and with little scientific evidence are being applied, being the only evidence that exists the ineffectiveness of psychiatric drugs and the brain damage they cause. They should acknowledge their inability to treat psychologically sensitive patients and abandon their methods, or revolutionize psychiatry, or stop their practice of medicine.